This is a quote from the book "The Virtue Of Selfishness" by Ayn Rand
...ustain and enjoy it — then no self-esteem or control or efficacy are possible to man, nothing is possible to him but the guilt and terror of a wretch caught in a nightmare universe, a universe
created by some metaphysical sadist who has cast man into a maze where the door marked “virtue” leads to self-destruction and the door marked “efficacy” leads to self-damnation.
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(4) His life and self-esteem require that man take pride in his power to think, pride in his power to live — but morality, men are taught, holds pride, and specifically intellectual pri...