This is a quote from the book "The ​Virtue Of Selfishness" by Ayn Rand
...lment, inspiration, but a sense of guilt, frustration, hopelessness, shame. The effect of pleasure on a man of self-esteem is that of a reward and a confirmation. The effect of pleasure on a man who lacks self-esteem is that of a threat — the threat of anxiety, the shaking of the precarious foundation of his /;.vewc/o-self-value, the sharpening of the ever-present fear that the struc ture will collapse and he will find himself face to face with a stem, absolute, unknown and unforgiving reality.

One of the commonest complaints of patients who seek psychotherapy,...
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