This is a quote from the book "The Virtue Of Selfishness" by Ayn Rand
...ions in which something worth saying and hearing is being said and heard. But a neurotic can “enjoy” a party for reasons unrelated to the real activities taking place; he may hate or despise
or fear all the people present, he may act like a noisy fool and feel secretly ashamed of it — but he will feel that he is enjoying it all, because people are emitting the vibrations of appro
val, or because it is a social distinction to have been invited to this party, or because other people appear to be gay, or because the party has spared him, for the length of an evening, the te...
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